I have completely neglected this thing for too long.. I don't know why. Maybe because I feel that things are going rather smoothly and I don't have a whole lot to bitch about. Or maybe it's because I've been venting to Tiana so I feel that I have someone listening to me.

Let's see.. I found a new job at an adult novelty shop. It's pretty cool. For the most part, people are really nice. It's kinda weird though. People expect you to be experienced with every dildo and nipple clamp in the place and I've never even been in an adult store until I started working there. I wasn't looking for a job there either. It just kinda happened since I was applying to every healthcare and retail store that had help wanted ads in the paper. What's cool is most of the other girls are just like me, in that they just kind of landed in their jobs and have no experience with all of it.

I met my net friend, Dan. He is one cool dude. Yay! Very laid back, which is nice. I like him. We went skimboarding a few times (which I suck at). He got me hooked onto Family Guy and World of Warcraft. I feared the day I would start playing MMORPG again. ^_^ It's really fun and I'm trying hard to not become obsessed. I have a level 21 warlock on a PVP server. PVP is so fucking awesome. I can't believe for all those years I wasn't on one in Everquest! I like killing people! It's pure eeeevilll. Grin.

I signed up for classes at the very last minute, which was yesterday. I paid nearly every penny I had saved up for a Political Science class and the Anatomy & Physiology, plus Lab. It was expensive. I vow to start saving right now for classes this spring so that I can get first pick! :p I'm having to take a dvd course on the A&P which really sucks. I'm gonna have to get my ass in gear. The Poli-Sci and A&P Lab are at the school so I should be alright for those. Hmm.. yea.. it feels good to be back in school I guess. I'm excited about A&P. I swung by Books-A-Million today and saw a coloring book for Anatomy. I'm thinking about getting it since I'm pretty visual when it comes to learning. I'll have to wait for my next paycheck.

Uhh.. I'm running out of pills and I keep forgetting to call the doc to set up an appointment. In fact, I'm going to go do that right after this before I blow it off again. I've been feeling really anxious and nervous which is weird since I have absolutely nothing to be worried about now that I think about it. It's almost like paranoia. I'm just waiting for someone to start yelling at me at all times or something. I bought a book called I'm OK, You're OK. I know, sounds dumb, but it was on the best-sellers list and it's supposed to help you come to terms with your own sense of self. I've read the first three pages. Let's see if I get through it with all the reading for school, too.

I'm paranoid about answering my phone again. It's pretty much on silent mode and answering machine at all times. This one dude from work, Stan, keeps calling me. Even though he's pretty cool and stuff, I don't really feel comfortable with his friend he's always with cause he's constantly trying to get closer to me. It wouldn't bother me so much, but he's kind of gangster-ish/hot-rod-riding/full of himself. Avoiding probably isn't the nicest thing to do, but I have a hard time telling people no in fear of hurting their feelings. :| They're cool to talk to at work, but that's about it. Maybe I'm giving the wrong impression or something. I probably seem like a bitch for not answering all day but, is there any way out of it? I guess I could give a lame excuse.

Wow. I worry far too much about what others think of me. That needs to change. Someday.

I have work in two hours so I better make an appointment for the doc and go take a shower.

-Christine

P.S.
I've been getting FAT since I stopped waitressing. HAHA! Time to start running (again).